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ntelligible to virginity; had ended by fancying that she had had as little mother as possible。 She did not even know her mother's name。
Whenever she asked Jean Valjean; Jean Valjean remained silent。
If she repeated her question; he responded with a smile。
Once she insisted; the smile ended in a tear。
This silence on the part of Jean Valjean covered Fantine with darkness。
Was it prudence?
Was it respect?
Was it a fear that he should deliver this name to the hazards of another memory than his own?
So long as Cosette had been small; Jean Valjean had been willing to talk to her of her mother; when she became a young girl; it was impossible for him to do so。
It seemed to him that he no longer dared。
Was it because of Cosette?
Was it because of Fantine?
He felt a certain religious horror at letting that shadow enter Cosette's thought; and of placing a third in their destiny。
The more sacred this shade was to him; the more did it seem that it was to be feared。 He thought of Fantine; and felt himself overwhelmed with silence。
Through the darkness; he vaguely perceived something which appeared to have its finger on its lips。
Had all the modesty which had been in Fantine; and which had violently quitted her during her lifetime; returned to rest upon her after her death; to watch in indignation over the peace of that dead woman; and in its shyness; to keep her in her grave?
Was Jean Valjean unconsciously submitting to the pressure? We who believe in death; are not among the number who will reject this mysterious explanation。
Hence the impossibility of uttering; even for Cosette; that name of Fantine。
One day Cosette said to him:
〃Father; I saw my mother in a dream last night。
She had two big wings。 My mother must have been almost a saint during her life。〃
〃Through martyrdom;〃 replied Jean Valjean。
However; Jean Valjean was happy。
When Cosette went out with him; she leaned on his arm; proud and happy; in the plenitude of her heart。
Jean Valjean felt his heart melt within him with delight; at all these sparks of a tenderness so exclusive; so wholly satisfied with himself alone。
The poor man trembled; inundated with angelic joy; he declared to himself ecstatically that this would last all their lives; he told himself that he really had not suffered sufficiently to merit so radiant a bliss; and he thanked God; in the depths of his soul; for having permitted him to be loved thus; he; a wretch; by that innocent being。
BOOK THIRD。THE HOUSE IN THE RUE PLUMET
CHAPTER V
THE ROSE PERCEIVES THAT IT IS AN ENGINE OF WAR
One day; Cosette chanced to look at herself in her mirror; and she said to herself:
〃Really!〃
It seemed to her almost that she was pretty。
This threw her in a singularly troubled state of mind。
Up to that moment she had never thought of her face。 She saw herself in her mirror; but she did not look at herself。 And then; she had so often been told that she was homely; Jean Valjean alone said gently:
〃No indeed! no indeed!〃 At all events; Cosette had always thought herself homely; and had grown up in that belief with the easy resignation of childhood。 And here; all at once; was her mirror saying to her; as Jean Valjean had said:
〃No indeed!〃
That night; she did not sleep。
〃What if I were pretty!〃 she thought。
〃How odd it would be if I were pretty!〃 And she recalled those of her panions whose beauty had produced a sensation in the convent; and she said to herself:
〃What!
Am I to be like Mademoiselle So…and…So?〃
The next morning she looked at herself again; not by accident this time; and she was assailed with doubts:
〃Where did I get such an idea?〃 said she; 〃no; I am ugly。〃
She had not slept well; that was all; her eyes were sunken and she was pale。
She had not felt very joyous on the preceding evening in the belief that she was beautiful; but it made her very sad not to be able to believe in it any longer。 She did not look at herself again; and for more than a fortnight she tried to dress her hair with her back turned to the mirror。
In the evening; after dinner; she generally embroidered in wool or did some convent needlework in the drawing…room; and Jean Valjean read beside her。
Once she raised her eyes from her work; and was rendered quite uneasy by the manner in which her father was gazing at her。
On another occasion; she was passing along the street; and it seemed to her that some one behind her; whom she did not see; said:
〃A pretty woman! but badly dressed。〃 〃Bah!〃 she thought; 〃he does not mean me。
I am well dressed and ugly。〃
She was then wearing a plush hat and her merino gown。
At last; one day when she was in the garden; she heard poor old Toussaint saying:
〃Do you notice how pretty Cosette is growing; sir?〃 Cosette did not hear her father's reply; but Toussaint's words caused a sort of motion within her。
She fled from the garden; ran up to her room; flew to the looking…glass;it was three months since she had looked at herself;and gave vent to a cry。 She had just dazzled herself。
She was beautiful and lovely; she could not help agreeing with Toussaint and her mirror。
Her figure was formed; her skin had grown white; her hair was lustrous; an unaccustomed splendor had been lighted in her blue eyes。
The consciousness of her beauty burst upon her in an instant; like the sudden advent of daylight; other people noticed it also; Toussaint had said so; it was evidently she of whom the passer…by had spoken; there could no longer be any doubt of that; she descended to the garden again; thinking herself a queen; imagining that she heard the birds singing; though it was winter; seeing the sky gilded; the sun among the trees; flowers in the thickets; distracted; wild; in inexpressible delight。
Jean Valjean; on his side; experienced a deep and undefinable oppression at heart。
In fact; he had; for some time past; been contemplating with terror that beauty which seemed to grow more radiant every day on Cosette's sweet face。
The dawn that was smiling for all