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ger stirred out ofbed； should be buried—but suddenly she knew that she would wait no longer； the time had e。
She had been working as cook and serving…girl for a large white family in town； and it was on theday her master proposed that she bee his concubine that she knew her life among thesewretched people had e to its destined end。 She left her employment that same day （leavingbehind her a most vehement conjugal bitterness）； and with part of the money that with cunning；cruelty； and sacrifice she had saved over a period of years； bought a railroad ticket to New York。
When she bout it； in a kind of scarlet rage； she held like a talisman at the back of her mind thethought： ‘I can give it back； I can sell it。 This don’t mean I got to go。’ But she knew that nothingcould stop her。
And it was this leave…taking that came to stand； in Florence’s latter days； and with othermany witness； at her bedside。 Gray clouds obscured the sun that day； and outside the cabin windowshe saw that mist still covered the ground。 Her mother lay in bed； awake； she was pleading withGabriel； who had been out drinking the night before； and who was not really sober now； to mendhis ways and e to the Lord。 And Gabriel； full of the confusion； and pain； and guilt that were hiswhenever he thought of how he made his mother suffer； but that became nearly insupportablewhen she taxed him with it； stood before the mirror； head bowed； buttoning his shirt。 Florenceknew that he could not unlock his lips to speak； he could not say yes to his mother； and to theLord； and he could not say no。
‘Honey；’ their mother was saying； ‘don’t you let your old mother die without you look herin the eye and tell her she going to see you in glory。 You hear me； boy？’
In a moment； Florence thought with scorn； tears would fill his eyes； and he would promiseto ‘do better。’ He had been promising to ‘do better’ since the day he had been baptized。
She put down her bag in the center of the hateful room。
‘Ma；’ she said； ‘I’m going。 I’m a…going this morning。’
Now that she had said it； she was angry with herself for not having said it the night before；so that they would have had time to be finished with their weeping and their arguments。 She hadnot trusted herself to withstand the night before； but now there was almost no time t。 The center of her mind was filled with the image of the great； white clock at the railway station； on which thehands did not cease to move。
‘You going where？’ her mother asked sharply。 But she knew that her mother hadunderstood； had indeed long before this moment known that this time would e。 Theastonishment with which she stared at Florence’s bag was not altogether astonishment； but astartled； wary attention。 A danger imagined had bee present and real； and her mother wasalready searching for a way to break Florence’s will。 All this Florence knew in a moment； and itmade her stronger。 She watched her mother； waiting。
But at the tone of his mother’s voice Gabriel； who had scarcely heard Florence’sannouncement； so grateful had he been that something had occurred to distract from him hismother’s attention； dropped his eyes and saw Florence’s traveling…bag。 And he repeated hismother’s question in a stunned； angry voice； understanding it only as the words hit the air：
‘Yes； girl。 Where you think you going？’
‘I’m going； she said； ‘to New York。 I got my ticket。’
And her mother watched her。 For a moment no one said a word。 Then； Gabriel； in achanged and frightened voice； asked：
‘And when you done decide that？’
She did not look at him； nor answer his question。 She continued to watch her mother。 ‘I gotmy ticket；’ she repeated。 ‘I’m going on the morning train。’
‘Girl；’ asked her mother； quietly； ‘is you sure you know what you’s doing？’
She stiffened。 seeing in her mother’s eyes a mocking pity。 ‘I’m a woman grown；’ she said。
‘I know what I’m doing。’
‘And you going；’ cried Gabriel； ‘this morning—just like that？ And you going to walk offand leave your mother—just like that？’
‘You hush；’ she said； turning to him for the first time； ‘she got you； ain’t she？’
This was indeed； she realized as he dropped his eyes； the bitter； troubling point。 He couldnot endure the thought of being left alone with his mother； with nothing whatever to put betweenhimself and his guilty love。 With Florence gone； time would have swallowed up all his mother’schildren； except himself； and he； then； must make amends for all the pain that she had borne； andsweeten her last moments with all his proofs of love。 And his mother required of him one proofonly； that he tarry no longer in sin。 With Florence gone； his stammering time； his playing time；contracted with a bound to the sparest interrogative second； when he must stiffen himself； andanswer to his mother； and all the host of Heaven； yes or no。
Florence smiled inwardly a small； malicious smile； watching his slow bafflement； andpanic； and rage： and she looked at her mother again。 ‘She got you；’ she repeated。 ‘She don’t needme。’
‘You going north；’ her mother said； then。 ‘And when you reckon on ing back？’
‘I don’t reckon on ing back；’ she said。
‘You e crying back soon enough；’ said Gabriel； with malevolence； ‘soon as they whipyour butt up there four or five times。’
She looked at him again。 ‘Just don’t you try to hold your breath till then； you hear？’
‘Girl；’ said her mother； ‘you mean to tell me the Devil’s done made your heart so hard youcan just leave your mother on her dying bed； and you don’t care if you don’t never see her in thisworld no more？ Honey； you can’t tell me you done got so evil as all that？’
She felt Gabriel watching her to see how she would take this question—the question that；for all her determination； she had dreaded most to hear。 She looked away from her mother； andstraightened； catching her breath； looking outwards through the small； cracked window。 Thereoutside； beyond the slowly rising mist； and farther off that her eyes could see； her life awaited her。
The woman on the bed was old； her life was fading as the mist